remembering "AC" - it's been a year :)

It's been a year now since AC left us and yes at times, there is still that wishful thinking for him to be still with us. But thinking of all the things that happened, AC is in a place way better than ours.

We remember you AC...

Miss you and we will be seeing you soon... :)

the anguish of studying, the thrill of passing and the wreck in failing....

It's almost a week now after those torturous days for "Purchasing" professionals I dare say or for a more suffocating term I mean sophisticated term Supply Chain Professionals since we took the challenge to take the ITC's MLS Exams on March 15-16, 2010 at BT in Taguig. And just so everyone will know, I am one of those who was tormented from the past days studying -- keeping my eyes wide awake in the night just to finish the modules after all the hard day's work. Whew! Just imaging the anguish I felt cramming all the way to put everything into my biological memory card -- the brain. Stacking everything up into your memory and as if your brain shouts to stop! I have had enough for the day. Let me sleep. But then, I need to study or else the well coveted pay increase for the next year will be forgone if I don't get that certification. Jeesh!

THE ANGUISH of STUDYING

I study. I read. I analyze. I rationalize. I summarize. This is the anguish of studying the modules. And this is how my brain absorbs what I study. Whew! I wanted to convince myself that reading and memorizing this by heart is for my own good but it seems like reading an HP book or Inkdeath was way better. I study until the wee hours of the morning and by the time the alarm rings in the morning for work, I hit the snooze button again not realizing I will be late for work.

THE THRILL IN PASSING

Results. Everyone is so excited to get the results of the exam. To see if they passed or failed. It takes almost 3 months before the results are released and of course I do feel that deep thrill in me wishing I will see that percentile score in green or blue with a word next to it passed. Each day we get so crazy checking the internet and logging onto to the site to see if the most coveted scores are already there. Oh the thought of me having the advanced certification is something already (something indeed! hmm....)

THE WRECK IN FAILING

Well actually failing isn't that fun but take it from an experienced failure. Yup, failed three modules all in all... Hahaha... Nah, its because I haven't reviewed that much due to so much work. And what makes the feeling so bad is that, I'm almost there... Almost passed.... Almost... And yet I failed. Jeeesh! If only I can go to Switzerland and defend my essay to this ITC guys, I would! Hahaha.... Anyways, failing? Its just up to you on how confident you are with reviewing the Modules and how good you reviewed and spent time reviewing your modules. After all, its is you who answers the exams!

The anguish, the thrill and the wreck....

Exams are finally over and yet the thrill of waiting for the results continues... :))

KEEPING MY FINGERS CROSSED!!!

It Doesn’t Really Matter

I have been wondering for quite some time how many people make it to a point to strive hard and yet at the end of the day when their hair becomes grey, they realize that they did not reach anything. Everything was rubbish and without value. They toil for a penny and when they grow old -- after all investments have been made and ROI’s have been calculated -- they do indeed have a house but never a home. An irony in life that has continuously bothered me throughout the 22 years of my life here on earth. We work so hard while we were young disregarding even our health and yet when we get paid off, we just spend thousands of our money into getting ourselves well and healthy once more (thanks to the hospitals!). And yet the cycle goes on and on and on and on and on. STOP! Somebody shouts and yet no one hears.

Being in a company who values return so much, investments are something that we are very particular about. Making it sure that in everything that we do we are getting the right amount and expected value of return or else the investment is deemed a dead-end.

Life has its one greatest challenge for everyone of us, and I think it just to live our lives to the fullest. And yes, fullest is not a matter of earning high returns on our investments, bagging an award, reaching the highest peak of our careers because at the end of it all, it is not that matters. It’s how we lived that life that we had.

There is something more rewarding than concentrating on gaining personal wealth or ambitions (of course, we have to do that too) but as I always tell myself – leave something for yourself. Don’t burn yourself like a paper that everything will be ashes soober. That one day when our hair turns gray, we still have a piece of us to share and not ashes from our burnt life slowly fading throughout the year. Live out, live free, enjoy life to the fullest. It doesn’t matter how we do this but always remember that we only have one life, and we have families, relatives, friends, officemates, classmates, and oh, enemies too -- to share the marvelous beauty of life with!

Till then!!!